it finally happened!

yes folks! you are looking at a picture of me with the one and only Gabe Saporta from Cobra Starship!!!! November 24th, the day we fell in love. haha well, im over doing it a bit. The sad thing is, that I'm not even obessed with him any more, so I wasn't freaked out to meet him and acting all loopy and stuff. It was actually pretty cool. Last night at the motion city soundtrack show this guy Gigady told me to ask Gabe if he knew him. haha i felt kinda stupid asking but Gabe said he knew him and that they were tight. so yeah thats cool i guess.

I got to meet Metro Station too, last night. I've waited forever for them to come near to where I live. haha i remember I liked them when they were just a local band in California and had like two songs. they were all really really cool too.

not so sweet 16

so today was my 16 birthday, and let me tell ya. it was not amazing like those kids birthdays are on MTV. It has to be one of the worst birthdays but better than my 13th birthday in sixth grade.

the only fun I had all day was at school.
Caitlin made me this amazing birthday card that was Cobra Starship themed and I loved it.
Haley made me a cupcake that was DELICIOUS! hahha
Justine made me a beautifullll card
and Ashley made me a necklace
and then tons of random people told me happy birthday throughout the day.

Cody Jazmin and Sophia came out to dinner with us. That was nice, I missed them a lot. They really are my closest friends that I've kept in touch with the longest.

Trisha came down to see me again. I missed her too. haha. We went to the mall and got the paramore dvd cd thingy. I love trisha and im excited for this weekend!!!


buttt
my mother and sister were acting like fucking bitches all day. but then again, what else is knew?


best present i got?
Sidekick 3 duh!

Polar Express

I can't believe Cody dragged me all the way to Chicago just so we could see Polar Express in 3D when it came out a couple years ago. I miss him soo much. Its weird not being able to talk to him that much since he's so busy with theater and everything. Sometimes I just wish I would of gone to Bradford. Think about how'd different Id be now... jeez. No dice.

I'm listening to Dear Prudence. =) Such an ugly name but what a beautiful song. ha.

No school for me today. I feel like straight crap. I want to get the flu. That way i'd have an excuss to lay around the house and eat soup all day. yumm. Tooo bad I have an amazing imune system or how ever you spell it. I rarely ever get deadly sick. Just semi sick, ha.

5 days till my sixteenth birthday! wow. I still don't know what I really really want. I have pretty much everything already. ha I'm so spoiled.

I met up with Trisha at the mall the other day. I bought that skelanimals shirt that everyone has. You know, this one. Hayley Williams rocked it all summer. So I'm sure as soon as I wear to to school people will get extremely jelous and clam I'm trying to be Hayley Williams, since of corse they have nothing else better to do then critize every single thing I do. ha!

whatever, its a cool shirt. Trisha knew I was getting too haha. She knows me too well. She got her monroe done and it looks really cute! i love it! maybe when I turn 18 ill get on that. haha. We also bought release the bats. it was only 15 bucks! haha what a deal! Can't have it till my birthday though =( bummmmm out!

Saturday Rachel Shapiro is having a party. I'm stoked. I miss everyone so much, and duh its Rachel Shapiro. I always have so much fun with her. she is, hands down, my favorite Jew to ever exsist. Right up there next to Gabe Saporta, haha.

Happy Birthday Jeffree Star!

wow, im cool. haha. I'm getting my hair diddd on saturday, fun stuff fun stuff.

I can't wait until christmas! I just love it soo much! I love winter, like well ... i love being warm in winter. I hate being cold, but then again im ALWAYS cold. haha oh well. They already have all their festive stuff up at starbucks. Got me real excited. I really wanna go see Fred Claus and Last Christmas too. They both look extremely funny, Last Christmas more though.

hmm nine days till the Sleeping With Giants tour for the SECOND time! With my best friends Cassie and Trisha and my favoriteeee band COBRA STARSHIP!!! omg, i am going to die. I will die. I just know it. haha I'm gonna cry and probably pass out when we meet Gabe. This time i NEED to get a picture with Jack the Camera Guy because I love him very very much. I wonder if he'll remember me from the Milwaukee show....

wow this is the first time I've gone to the same tour twice. We must really love us some TAI!

carry on home ill be waiting miles and miles away

well, Happy Birthday Trisha!

im home now. tourzilla tonight. it was exciting. met everyone in all time low, that made my life. i really don't feel like explaining everything that happened but i guess i will anyways.

so we got there at around 10:30ish in the morning, and basically we were the only people (mayber there were like 5 more but they dissappered) yeah anyways we spotted all time lows right away and we chilled around it for the longest time. then we decided to go to mcdonalds to get warm and there was some crack head in there talking to us about rapping i guess haha idk. i ended up dropped katchup in front of him and it was really creepy. so we left there and went to the gas station. our buddy works there and hes pretty tight. hes from like iraq or soemthing haha idk but he was giving us free stuff so that was awesome. he gave me a monster for free! yay! so we waited around the rave for some more and took some pictures. and let me tell you it was cold!

we also made all time low some nasty cupcakes. well, they were good the night we made them but the next day, today, all they did was make us sick and turn our mouth different colors. so we threw those away. haha. didnt wanna give those to the band, poor guys would of got sick. We told Alex about how we made them and he thought it was sweet and told us he make us a cake next time he saw us, their next tour i guess. haha.

So then we ended up meeting some random band who turned out to be pretty cool. Maintaining Composure was the name of them and they were about our age. They drove some ghetto tour bus thing that i found amazing haha. they gave us a tour of it and, well, lets just say it was not what i expected. There was like 8 people in there and one bed. How that all worked out idk. They also showed us the gaturade bottle they piss in since they didn't have a toliet, but they have a shower... im not sure how that works...

But yes so we made a cool frined from that made named Chris. Every time we talked to him we'd go "Hey Chris" and it would remind us of my favorite Fall Out Boy song, which name of it i can NEVER get right. Granade Jumper? yes, thats it! "Hey Chris! You were our only friend, and i know this is belated but WE LOVE YOU BACK!" anyways chris was cool.

Cassie Trisha Chris and I were all sitting in mcdonalds just straight chillin and maxin on some food when I looked up and saw all time lows merch guy walking towards mcdonalds with two dudes. The first one i reconized right away. It was Jack, my FAVORITE! and I was like 'OMG GUES ITS ALL TIME LOW GET THE CAMERA!!' The other guy was the adorable Rian. They walked into mcdonalds and we just stared at them. But after they placed their orders for the food we walked up to them and asked for pictures. Jack was telling us how he had just woke up. He looked so cute. I felt bad though because when trisha was taking a picture with Jack, Rian was going to be in it but then he backed up like we didn't want him or something. aww i went up to him and was like 'rian, can i have picture too?' aww i love rian! He was looking cute too. haha I was gonna say hes my favorite drummer ever but that has to go to Zac Farro. Sorry Rian! Hes close second though, tied with butcher maybeee. But yeah, All Time Lows merch dude was a jerk. Every since Warped Tour when I asked for a small shirt and he gave me a large I haven't been too fond of him. He looks gay to me though so, ahh who knows.

After that little run in with them at mcdonalds we walked back over to the rave and waited till doors opened. We went in a walked some opening bands. They were all pretty good. Maintaining Composure was the best though. haha They dedicated a song to trisha which was really cool since it was her 18th birthday, sort of. After they all played they opened up the main doors into the bigger stage. Usually this would be the time where we'd charge the rail spots. But seeing as I can not stand boys like girls, and i didn't know any of the other bands besides all time low we didn't even bother for good spots. Instead we went over to the merch tables and I got this sweet all time low poster. its amazing. it came with a free cd too. but i already have 'so wrong its right' i like 'put up or shut up' better though.

So after we got all our cool merch I turned around and Alex Gaskarth was RIGHT behind us. I freaked a lil and was like 'guys its alex!' we walked over there and got a picture with him. He was the nicest person ever, haha. I told him he had the same hoodie as Gabe Saprota. Seeing as I know every piece of clothing Gabe owns. Haha its pretty sad. He liked our idea of the cupcakes, but didn't sound to excited to eat them. So its a good thing we threw them away. He was chilling by the dude from Boys Like Girls and it was funny cause everyone was asking Alex for pictures and like no one knew who the other guy was and he was the freaking headliner. Stupid fans! We just sort of stood there and watched him for a little bit. But then we went back and got another picture because the ones we took the first time we didn't like. I'm not to sure why my face turned out like that hahah but it did. Alex was cool and let us take as many pictures as we wanted. and THIS time I wasn't screamed at by some stupid rave sercuity gaurds. I was happy.

so after that we some how found jack again and got this sweet picture with him, and he signed my sidekick. They all did expect Alex =[

all time low had thee best preformance. i was proud of myself too because im not gonna lie. i have nottt been listening to that new cd at all. but i knew all the songs they played except for stay awake but whatever it was one song. at one point they had EVERYONE in the rave get down on their knees. It was sooo cool. you could see the stage perfectly from where we were. everyone was all quiet and i screamed out "I LOVE YOU GUYS!" haha and i was waving and being extremely obnoxious. it was fun. they were sooo good. but their set seemed really short. I can't wait for all time low to do a headlining tour only so they'll play more songs. i just don't want them to get big and stuck up like panic at the disco. gross.

then it was time for boys like girls to come on. i lasted about three songs until i had to get out of there. i couldn't take it any more. they have to be the gayest band in the whole world. martin can not sing what so ever. omg. it was horrible. i was trying to like dance along to the songs and stuff but i felt more like a nerd at that concert then at that harry potter book party i went to back in the summer. haha it was rough. so we just walked around for a little bit. they played great escape and before they did martin goes "I KNOW SOME OF YOU OUT HEAR HATE OUR FUCKING MUSIC AND THATS ALRIGHT!" and i started cracking up and I was like 'opp he must of seen those middle fingures i was holding up during 5 minutes to midnight' hahah. i hate boys like girls. they gay.

after the show we found zack chillin by his bus. it was freaking freezing out there. haha he had two apples in his pockets and he was like drunk or something cause he was stubblin all over the place. we also saw this drunk lady fall in the street. she was wasted out her mind. it was horrible. she was nasty too. gross. haha. so after the show we waited for their mom to get there and we were lookin for marty doodle but no luck. darn it! haha. god martin is ugly. he looks like a demented deamon or something. i dont know what hanna beth sees in that. i should ask her. haha shed hate me forever. finally their mom showed up and we drove back there house. but then my mom made me come home because i ' didnt let her know i was staying two nights' or something idk she probably just wanted me home for some odd reason. i guess ill find out tomorrow. im super tired though and its almost 4 in the morning. i need to stop listening to calm before the storm and go to bed.

plane ride.
MINE TOO!

hahaha! santi!

so it is decided

that if i went to hogworts, id be in gryffindor house.

my pinky is freezing and the rest of my hand is warm. its driving me nuts.

today was a lot better than last night.

november 24th Gabe Saporta will belong to me. :]

i need to fold my clothes.

I dont know what it is but i think Audrey Kitching is extremely cool. haha bet you didn't know that!

Her and Brendon were a cute couple, thats for sure. Do I miss panic? Hecky Nah! (as cassie would say)

worst day of my life

trisha calls me today, tells me the boys like girls concert is sold out. seeing as i already have my ticket it doesnt phase me much. i go to check and make sure cobra isnt sold out. and what do you know IT IS! what the FUCK am i supposed to do now?! all ive been thinking about lately is Gabe Saporta and how absoluelty amazing it would be to meet him. i dont even like fucking boys like girls. fuck them. UGH! i would sell my ticket, AND my soul JUSTTt to be able to see Cobra Starship. i swear to goddddddddddddddd. This weekend is going to suck. This month is going to suck. my life. is a joke. it needs to end soon. come on life line, you're broken just end alreadyyyy. My beautiful Gabe, will we ever meet again?!

shark water

i need to clear my mind. just open up and let loose. i need to get away. i need a vacation. i just really need some time to my self, maybe just like a week of detox. yessss.

i also need to see gabe. if i dont, i swear part of me will die.

dont care about the rest when you know your the best

once again i havent been writing in this stupid thing. ive been listening to fall out boy a lot lately. it makes me miss pete and they bring back memories from forever ago, i like it. haha. right now though im listening to the academy, NOT the academy is... In Our Defense one of there increbily old songs. i love it. i love them. 19 days till we see them i think.



i spent my weekend with trisha and cassie. my two most favorite people in the whole wide world. basically all we did was eat my halloween candy, talk about the academy is, and walk up to game crazy just to play guitar hero 3. i for sure thought they were going to kick us out. haha. they're the greatest. im so glad that i finally found people who i can actually relate to. ya know? this weekend is the boys like girls concert and we are celebrating trishas 18th birthday! haha we're inviting all time low to the party. they'll love it, this should be intresting. i havent seen them since the summer and i miss them and their crazy since of hurmor, theyre getting to be big stars ya know. im sort of happy for them, haha only a little bit.

i went to dinner with my dad tonight. i forgot how funny he was. out of the blue he goes "sara, remember when we were in the mall and that music video came on with that crazy white boy in the top hat and some crazy red coat and you pointed to him and said 'daddy, theyre hot' and i about died" haha i was like , yeah dad, that was panic! at the disco. and of corse he thinks they're gay. i guess hes right though. i love my dad hes the craziest person i know. hes almost 60 years old and he's still beating the shit out of people. thats so hood. hahaha.

i have finals tomorrow eh!

why is it

that every time i wake up i have a stuffy nose? ugh it drives me absoulutely crazy! but yeah. wheni woke up today i was thinking to my self "wow i really miss my chemical romace." too bad there all old men now. hahaha. im thinking about taking my sister to taste of chaos. her first "real" concert seeing as she wouldn't want panic at the disco or good charlotte to count. hahaha.

i had a dream last night about this boy. i wish my feelings for him would just go awayyyyy!!! ugh! lol.

but on a better note. i saw some youtube vide of some girl asking gabe saporta if she could have a kiss the cheek. he actaully gave her one! haha so you know what that means......

green finch and linnet bird

so i really didn't get to finish talking about the concert. it was the worst crowd but the greatest preformance. haha even better than jonas brothers! trisha and cassie are offically my most favorite people ever. haha finally i have people to talk about the academy is with me and quote TAI TV!

tonight i went and saw cody sophia and jazmin in Sweeney Todd. it was really good. its amazing how good cody is at that stuff. sophia and jazmin too. but cody god. its been two months since we've seen each other. i remember in elementry school we used to spend every day together and now we're lucky if we can even get ahold of each other. i know will be friends for ever though. i wouldn't have it any other way.

i finally figured out how to get music onto my phone. ha im so retarded. im still kinda stoked from paramore last night. i didn't really get to talk about the concert i was so tired! in all it was good. i cried all the way up to crushcrushcrush. then i was alright till My Heart started then it was sob city. haha. im listening to franklin right now, my other favorite. that and my heart ALWAYS get to me. i can't believe we met them in between mcdonalds and the rave. what an odd spot. haha well hey, thats where sisky was when Trisha and Cassie seen him, it must be the hang out. So kids, when seeing a show at the rave if you wanna find the band members, chill by mcdonalds :]
i can't believe boys like girls is next saturday. cobra is two saturdays after that!
jo bros in december! hahaha

so I've listened to the song Guilty Pleasure over 200 times in the past week. trisha and cassie are supposed to be coming over tomorrow and we're going make ANOTHER video to it. haha and im doing trishas extentions! whoop!

everything lately has been reminded me christmas. like smells and stuff. its almost time to bring out Polar Express, seeing as thats my favorite christmas movie ever. haha i hate that about me though. i get excited about hoildays months before, and by the time we get to them im over it. when i live on my own maybe i'll just celebrate hoildays when i feel like it. haha. yeah thatd be sweet.


my back is killing me!


today was my first ever trip to goodwill. ive never been to one of them before. i felt like a poor person and it smelt like a basement in there. but i was looking for a pleather jacket like siskys. haha no luck. i have a feeling ill be taking more trips to the goodwill. it was rather exciting.


i can't really remember what else i had to say. so im gonna go.

we want the air waves back!

alright so last night was paramore. it was the roughest show ive been to by far. and i really don't understand why. paramore isn't hardcore and the singer is a girl. but whatever. we were right in front of josh. hahah he is so cute. i sat there and cried the whole time. i was so excited. they played my heart and i just straight balled and let everything out. it was amazing. hayleys hair was NOT orange though and i was pissed. time for school!

Good Morning!

so. we ended up not winning those backstage passes. the radio guy was a jerk. when i called he was like "yeah we got them keep on listening!" so we kept on listening. they played some crappy music and talked about Boys Like Girls but nothing about paramore. so laken decided to call and the guy was like "NO WE DONT HAVE THEM BYE!" and hung up on her. we were pissed. see if we ever listen to that radio station again. ugh!

so im writing in the morning because well one. this is the first time i up this early. and two, ill be going to paramore right after school. i really not all that excited. or as excited as i should be i guess. idk. i love paramore and everything but, hey lets face it. there not academy is or cobra starship. haha im so excited for that concert and its 23 days away! jeez!

but whatever happens tonight im sure it'll be amazing.